| Sunday, March 04, 2012 |
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i haven't felt so scared in a while. didn't want to have this feeling ever again, yet here i am wanting to scream because i know it could be my fault because of my carelessness. T.T |
| Saturday, March 03, 2012 |
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hey there! its been two years since i've updated this blog. not exactly the best diary writer either. arghs. anyway, i was bored, so i decided that i would open up my blogger page and read. after reading the page, i decided, "hey! perhaps i should just write an entry." let me give you an update. I've recently graduated from uni and am now a degree holder! sounds so awesome isn't it? :D i'm back to work and am still surprised that i love my job (though i complain quite a bit about it at times) ever since graduating, i've been thinking about what i want to do and i find that i'm rather confused. i realise that i don't know what i want to do. i mean, i used to think that i'd be married and settled by now, but look at me! things have changed and my ideas and feelings towards things have now changed too. i don't really feel comfortable with these 'unfocused' goals. things that i want now are: 1) to travel 2) to have fun (while doing anything) 3) to live life 4) to do some humanitarian work 5) maybe find someone who loves me along the way and seeing this, compared to: 1) have a family 2) get married by 24 3) have 4 kids 4) have a good job 5) save as much money as possible i know my priorities have changed. and i do not know if that is a good or bad thing? being focused in life in good, but what is the good of it without enjoying it? and now, i am sorta stuck between two, in which i feel that i go either one or the other. and this total opposite traits make me feel restless now. i know i should find balance. however, at this point, i can't feel it and find it. this worries me. anyway, that's just some rants. one of my moments i guess. so, for now i bid you good night and sleep tight as i'm going to sleep now. see you in the morning! g |